Day 29: That One Kid

I think we have all had that one kid...the one that drives us crazy but we just love to death in spite of it. I have one of those kids this year. This little boy has been a challenge since day one. His go-to response for anything is a physical response. If he thinks he has been wronged, he has been known to hit and kick as his immediate reaction. This comes from having two very physical older brothers. We've worked incredibly hard to show him other ways of handling anger and frustration.

I have worked really hard with him to let him know that I WANT to hear his side of things. He is so used to people immediately assuming the worst and jumping to a punishment, that it took some time to get him to trust me and know that I am not going to believe everyone else before hearing from him. Now he does. He and I have built a special relationship this year. He comes to me and asks me questions and holds onto my hand to receive a reassuring squeeze that yes, I am listening and I value what he has to say. I have given him an individual behavior plan to help him see his daily progress and his biggest goal is to get all smiley faces so that he can have lunch with me. Who would have thought that lunch with me would be his biggest motivator?

In recent weeks, I have even seen him start to finally put effort into his work. For the first time, he is taking pride in his writing and asked three or four times today when he would be able to share his writing. This is one of those cases where progress cannot be measured in reading levels or test scores. We have laid so much foundation this year it's going to be really hard to give him up to a second grade teacher next year. If anyone had told me in September that I would be saying that about this boy in particular, I would have said they were nuts. But he is just one of those kids who has wormed his way into a special place in my heart.

Day 28: Finding a Focus

It's Day 28 of the  2016 Slice of Life Story Challenge. As I look back on my posts so far, almost all of them have been about my family. In all fairness, I had been on Spring Break for days 18 through 27, so it makes sense that my slices have been about family-related topics. Of course, that doesn't account for days 1 through 17, but my number-one focus in my life is my family, so most of my posts tend be about that part of my life.

However, as you can tell by the title of my blog, I am also a teacher. I spend every day with 27 first grade boys and girls. They are my own special source of entertainment. I admittedly have a very poor short-term memory, so when cute things happen with my students, if I don't write them down immediately, the exact wording is lost. My first graders crack me up in some way almost every single day, so it's a shame that I don't have more recorded stories about them and the things they say. The ones I remember most are the ones that I rush to tell my teaching team, but even they get tired of hearing the stories I'm sure.

There are a lot of people, particularly educators, who have embraced the practice of choose "One Little Word" to focus on for the year. Last year, my OLW was "Family". I concentrated my efforts on spending more time with my family, saying "yes" to the little things that would allow us to spend time together and bring us closer.

I haven't decided on my new OLW yet. I'm not even sure when the start and end date should be. Is it the calendar year? The school year? Just some arbitrary date chosen by whomever it was that started the OLW "movement"? And while I haven't chosen that one perfect word, I do know that it is going to be about finding the joy and capturing the childlike wonder of the children I am fortunate enough to be entrusted with every day.

There are so many negatives in the media, public perception, and government about education and educators. It's hard not to get overwhelmed and disheartened by it all. That is why I want to encase myself in my own little classroom bubble and be in the moment with my students. I want to remind myself every day of their youth and innocence and the possibilities that are ahead of them.

Day 16: A Well-Oiled Machine

Today started off pretty hectic. As I was driving to work, I got a text from my oldest son at school that he was sick. He wanted to know when his dad would be able to come pick him up. I told him that his dad was babysitting his cousin today and wouldn't have a car seat so he wouldn't be able to leave the house and go pick him up. So, I called my school and arranged for someone to cover my class while I went to pick my son up at school and drop him off at home.

By the time I dropped him off and finally arrived at school, I was only about 20 minutes past the time that the kids arrive. That tardy bell had already rung and I was pleased at what I discovered when I walked into my room.

The kids had already moved to our morning meeting circle and the helper of the day had started the book check-in process. They have gotten so independent with our routine that they were able to get it going without me or any other instructions. I would be curious to see how far into our morning routine they are able to go without my prompting.

Day 13: Sunday Night Blahs

I'm sure that there are few people across many professions who do not suffer from Sunday Night Blahs. Whether you have been lazy all weekend and then realize on Sunday night that you got nothing done, or you have been incredibly busy all weekend and on Sunday night realize that you had no time to relax, the Sunday Night Blahs kick in and cause some very strong reactions in people.

Normally, I tend to fall in the former category. My week has been so busy that I just want to unplug, unwind, and do nothing. By the time Sunday night rolls around, I'm kicking myself for my lack of motivation that then sends me into a panic come Monday morning.

This weekend I was busy the entire weekend with the State Thespian Conference, literally at the High School all evening Friday, all day Saturday, and most of the day Sunday, and I didn't have much time to relax, However, I was incredibly productive and feel really good about the week ahead. Of course, some of that might have to do with the fact that I only have to teach 3 days this week due to a professional development day one day and the start of Spring Break on another.

The main reason I was able to be so productive was that while I was at the conference, I was hosting the Adult Hospitality Room all weekend. I just had to be present and make sure all the snacks and water was constantly stocked. I brought my school work and was able to get data entered and analyzed, groups planned for, and lesson plans written. I really do feel a huge sense of accomplishment when I am able to be so prepared going into a week. I don't know why I don't do it more often.

Of course, there are things I wasn't able to do, like update my class webpage, but that didn't take too long and is already done. I may have a very busy week ahead of me (mostly consisting of "mom duties" after school) but for once I am not dreading Monday morning and thinking I am not prepared enough. I'm going to enjoy this feeling while it lasts.

Day 3: Teacher Evaluations

This year is my year to get evaluated by my principal. During an evaluation cycle, I am visited twice; once in the Fall and again in the Winter/Spring. The first time this year, my principal observed a reading lesson. It was rough. The kids and I had really not found our groove yet. It goes without saying that there was plenty for my principal to put in the "Areas of Refinement" section of the evaluation report. Today, I had my post-observation conference for my second observation and it was great! I have to say, I rocked that evaluation. But, I can't say that I have always held that outlook.

To give you a little background, I get extremely nervous whenever I am evaluated or observed by anyone. I used to hate having other teachers in my room. I learned in college that I suffer from the "imposter phenomenon". Have you heard of this? It's the belief that you are faking your way through whatever it is that you are doing and someone will eventually find you out and call you on it. I have had many dreams over the years in which my colleagues or principal come into my room, watch my teaching, and then say, "Who gave you a teaching license?! You have no business being a teacher!" I kid you not! For years, this thinking had me on pins and needles whenever someone wanted to visit my classroom or I had an observation. 

But over the last year or so something has changed. I don't know if I finally have gotten to the point where I really do think that I know what I'm doing, or if I have just gotten used to having people in my room. Our reading intervention teacher conducts her groups right inside our classroom. Our Literacy Coach spends time in our classrooms coaching us. I have students who require instructional aides to be in the classroom regularly. My principal will sometimes just miss being in a classroom and stop by, sit down, and just take it all in for five or ten minutes. We've had teachers from other schools come and observe what our team is doing with technology and blended learning. 

I guess I have just gotten to the point where I am comfortable enough in what I am doing to just be myself. As a result of this shift, I had a great observation and a glowing evaluation. I have finally begun to believe in myself as a teacher and am starting to think of myself as an expert in my field. Okay, well maybe "expert" is a bit of a stretch, but compared to a lot of people who think they know what it means to be a teacher because they spent 13-18 years in a school, I guess I have a leg up. 

However, I think the biggest catalyst of my change in outlook has to do with my principal. She is the kind of leader who we always hope to work with. She listens to her staff, she cares about her students, she values the parents, she is truly here to do what is best for the students. I don't feel like she is judging me. I feel that if I were to have a rough patch, she would be there trying to help me be better. In a time when so much is against us in education, it is so nice to know that I am in a really good place. I teach the greatest kids and work with a fantastic team, under the leadership of a wonderful principal, in an amazing district, led by a dynamic and innovative superintendent. Is it any wonder that my evaluation went so well. 

Day 2: Read Across America

As many of you who are in the field of education know, today marks the birthday of Dr. Seuss, aka Theodor Seuss Geisel. In addition to recognizing this day as the day of his birth, the National Education Association created "Read Across America" as part of an initiative on reading. On March 2, schools all across the country celebrate reading and honor the contributions that Dr. Seuss made to children's literature by taking the time to share the love of reading.

Today, every student, teacher, and staff member of my school lined the hallways and read at the same time for 10 minutes. It was really neat to see everyone sitting down, enjoying their book of choice, and talking about their reading. I brought a book that I have recently started and sat down right beside my kiddos and read too. 

The really great part was that when the Media Specialist announced that the time was over, the entire first grade stayed in the hall and continued reading until one of the teachers asked what time we go in and I answered that they already announced that we could. We were all so involved in our books that we didn't even notice that everyone else had already left and returned to their classrooms. I wish I had more time to just sit and read a book for myself in my classroom and show my students that I not only practice what I preach, but that I have to force myself not to read when I should be doing something else. But, as my mom reminds me, that is the story of my life. I always had a book with me and would rather be reading than doing anything else. 

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to get back to my book!